It's still the greatest

A short disclaimer:

Yes, I am about a gazillion years too late to the Kings of Leon party. Yes, the title is from the song "Sex on Fire". And yes, this is going to be about sex.

Sooo, the old hanky panky as it were. I'm just going to say this.

I am not necessarily one of those girls who immediately associate emotions & feelings with sex. I do not have to be dating you for me to be having great sex with you. Sometimes that even helps.

But, despite my more, uh, liberal views on sex, I have not had sex in a WHILE. Let's just leave it at that.

And it usually doesn't bother me. But every so often, something will set my mind to it, and then I'm consumed by it. And then the sex dreams start. Then memories flood back.

I can remember the feeling you get in your throat when someone touches your collarbone for the first time.

When someone's hands make the baby fine hair on your abdomen stand up straight.

The warmth that courses through your veins when...

When well, you know....
I still have to keep some of my modesty.

Weeeeooooohweeeeooohh

That, is the sound of a siren.

Because my last post may have been a bit alarmist. I'm fine. Thanks to all who worried about me, I'm sorry to have made you fret.

Truth is, not much has changed since the last time I whined about things.

Mah girl Lemmonex has got herself a new gig. Please go & congratulate her. Then come back to me.

So, I have been new job searching in earnest since October 2008. I have not had ONE interview. NOT ONE. The reason I bring up Lemmonex is because her new job was like someone dumping a bucket of ice water on my head.

I have been in denial of my job hunting efforts.
"Oh, but I have great networking contacts."
"My LinkedIn is so on!"
"The economy sucks."

And so on and so forth.

I'm Type A. I refuse to believe that there is not a way for my to manage this better. I internalize this. It has to be something I'm doing wrong.

The problem is, that's where the thoughts stop. I don't have any line on the horizon. I can't see where this ends. I cannot see my finish line.

And it's torturing me.
Whine.

I got nuthin

Sometimes life just up and kicks you in the teeth.

That's all I've got for now...I'll be back.